Loud & Clear

[momo]

My testimony started when the praise and worship went up before we ever made the march around the church. So very clearly, or should I say loud and clear, I heard the words,"Selfish, Selfish" I knew the words must have been true because I started to cry so hard. Talk about conviction. You see one night on the parking lot of UTA when I had gone all I could go, I was conteplating giving up, my dream, his vision of me, all of it. It had gotten too hard. I was tired, felt out of my element in classes with all those young kids, and just couldn't possibly see how I could get through it all. Basically Satan was beating me up in the parking lot in my own car. I cried out and said, "Lord, if you get me through graduate school, I promise I will go where you lead" Needless to say, I got out of the car, went to class and finally graduated. Fast forward to Parkland Hospital. I love working with the teen pregnant girls, and even have it in my heart to work with the pregnant women who are still doing drugs. No judgement, just love, acceptance and encouragement. You see I understand the voice of addiction. But the travel is so far, it takes me almost 2 hours to get home at night. (That is if I get out of work on time) I kept crying, I want to work in Fort Worth where I don't have to travel so far. Blah, blah, wah, wah, boo hoo! Seems like I forgot that promise I made in the UTA parking lot. He reminded me on that Sunday night. He was right. I was being selfish. He has a job for me to do, evendently at Parkland and I must suit up, show up and show out for HIM!!!!! Thank you Lord for loving me enough to tell me when I am being a selfish whinning baby. And thank you for loving me enough to give me peace while I am there. Debi gave me a sign that says, "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain" Like the song says, I am free to run, I am free to Dance. FREE FREE FREE